I tend to deal well with changes. In fact, I embrace change. I look forward to change. I change things up in my life all the time. Like the paint in my room. The words I have written on my mirror. The pictures that cover my mirror. There are a few things I like to keep the same. Passwords, my Chai tea from Starbucks, and my friends. Oh and Sperry's. They're always good to keep around.
But lately, I have been inundated with change. My best friend is going across the country for school. My sister left to go back to college today. I switched schools. New classes, new campus, new teachers, new transportation, new friends. At church, we have new staff, new music; I am in a new group now. All of these are good. The changes at church, the changes at school. Those are good.
The best friend leaving- never good. And frankly, this week has been a little hard. Today, I started crying in church because I was overwhelmed with my special people leaving me and this new chapter I am starting. I still love change, but it's an awful lot of change all at once. And sometimes, in the midst of all these people, I still feel alone.
I know I am not alone. Jesus is with me every step of the way. When I'm on top of that 14er as high of a mountain I can be on, and when I'm in the bottom of a tough transition, feeling alone yet knowing the love that's all around me. And sometimes, insecurities creep in. School, church, friendships, life. Life in general. And the only thing constant in my life- is my relationship with Jesus Christ. And I am so very thankful for that. Because when I feel alone, I begin to pray. I listen to music. I dig into Scripture and I become even more reliant on him. So through all this change, my relationship with Christ is changing also. It becomes a necessity- a constant growth- a steady rock to grab onto when I'm not sure whether I am coming or going.
Life is change. Change is easy at times and sometimes change is hard. Right now, it's more hard than easy. But it's okay. Because when I am feeling sad or discouraged or a little unsure of where to go or what is going on- I cling to the fact that my relationship with Jesus is here. Always. Without fail. Always and forever. And that will never change. And I look forward to what else will be changing and how I will grow in His way.
His promise to me: Hebrews 13:5- "...I will never leave you nor forsake you." Psalm 71:21- "Thou shalt increase my greatness, and comfort me on every side." Psalm 94:19- "In the multitude of my thoughts within me, thy comforts delight me soul."
Love you guys,
S
Sunday, August 17, 2014
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
Oops
I've done it. I went the entire summer without blogging. It makes me wonder whether or not I am truly a blogger or not? There has been so much that has happened that I felt slightly overwhelmed with everything I should write down. So, instead of chipping away at all the things I wanted to write, I just didn't write at all. Because we all know that makes the most sense. This summer has been spectacular. God has been so very good to me.
1. My graduation party weekend was so incredible.
2. I went to Seattle.
3. I went to Hawaii.
4. I climbed a 14er.
5. I got accepted to UCD.
That's just naming a few things I have done. Okay. So now that I have written out big five highlights- now I will go back and blog about each one. Ha. Who are we kidding. Get ready. This is just gonna be a long post.
1. I "graduated". And it's so complicated so I will just say that if I was a normal child, this year I would have graduated. So we pretended I was normal and had a graduation party. And I had friends from all over and from forever come to it and it made me feel so loved, blessed, and special. God is so very good.
2. I went to Seattle. It was enchanting. I also went to Canada. That was beautiful too. Seattle is so radically different than Denver. So different. So much more farmers markets where this girl can get her favorite flowers for wayyyyy less than she can in Denver. I also got chocolate croissants, killer shrimp, and yummy mussels. All things I don't normally get here. I also got to be with my cousins whom I love to death and see my aunt and uncle- it's been a while and also see my grandparents. What would I do without my family?
3. I went to Hawaii. And I was left utterly breathless so many time because of God's creativity when he created those islands. I am in love with that place. I went cliff jumping, snorkeling, kayaking, racing on the beach. I went to Pearl Harbor and was honored to be able to see the USS Arizona Memorial Site. I was with my lovely family and I had fish for every lunch and dinner for a week and it was delicious. I have so many memories from there that I will treasure forever. I saw so many homeless people there. It was shocking and sobering. The culture is so different there. People walking into Starbucks with their swimsuits on and no shoes and no one blinks. The open air places and the warm welcoming atmosphere. The hula dance lessons I got and the beautiful leis. The breathtaking water and the warm sunsets. The private beaches and beached turtles. The hours in the sun with my cousins and the afternoons in the water. I can't even begin to describe how much I treasure these memories and the adventures I had in beautiful Hawaii.
4. Yesterday I climbed a 14er. For those who don't know what a "14er" is- it is a mountain that is over 14,000 feet in elevation. Us, Coloradans, affectionately call them 14ers. I hiked up it and ran down it. And it was the most incredible sight and I was ever so thankful I run because my lungs weren't dying for oxygen. I loved being able to reach the summit and sitting there in awe as I am in the clouds and the tree line is far below me. I loved being able to jump up and down rocks as I navigated the boulder canyon and look out and see beautiful colors far beyond me. I loved being able to be with friends as I climbed it and when we reached the top simply enjoying being up there. My knees hurt like crazy which is weird because that hasn't been a problem before but it was ever so worth it. It was so cold! 32 degrees but I loved wearing lots of sweatshirts and enjoying the breathtaking backyard I live in.
5. I got accepted to UCD. Or University of Colorado Denver. It's been a long process and I am finally signed up for classes. I can't believe this is my junior year and next year I will be a senior. And then off to law school I go. God has been so very good to me and I am so excited about the witnessing opportunities I will have as I ride the Light-Rail and interact with unsaved people every day on my campus. God has given me a mission field that I am so easily able to connect with and this year I am praying that God gives me the words he wishes me to say and gives me his eyes so I can see the hurt around me. There is so much to learn this year both academically and spiritually. I can't wait to see what the school year of 2014 holds for me.
If you're still reading this- WOW! Good job. Thanks for reading and I promise during the school year I will be much more consistent. Also, I am working on a blog post about all my favorite places to eat around Denver so stay tuned for that! Have a wonderful week!
Love y'all,
Sarah
1. My graduation party weekend was so incredible.
2. I went to Seattle.
3. I went to Hawaii.
4. I climbed a 14er.
5. I got accepted to UCD.
That's just naming a few things I have done. Okay. So now that I have written out big five highlights- now I will go back and blog about each one. Ha. Who are we kidding. Get ready. This is just gonna be a long post.
1. I "graduated". And it's so complicated so I will just say that if I was a normal child, this year I would have graduated. So we pretended I was normal and had a graduation party. And I had friends from all over and from forever come to it and it made me feel so loved, blessed, and special. God is so very good.
2. I went to Seattle. It was enchanting. I also went to Canada. That was beautiful too. Seattle is so radically different than Denver. So different. So much more farmers markets where this girl can get her favorite flowers for wayyyyy less than she can in Denver. I also got chocolate croissants, killer shrimp, and yummy mussels. All things I don't normally get here. I also got to be with my cousins whom I love to death and see my aunt and uncle- it's been a while and also see my grandparents. What would I do without my family?
3. I went to Hawaii. And I was left utterly breathless so many time because of God's creativity when he created those islands. I am in love with that place. I went cliff jumping, snorkeling, kayaking, racing on the beach. I went to Pearl Harbor and was honored to be able to see the USS Arizona Memorial Site. I was with my lovely family and I had fish for every lunch and dinner for a week and it was delicious. I have so many memories from there that I will treasure forever. I saw so many homeless people there. It was shocking and sobering. The culture is so different there. People walking into Starbucks with their swimsuits on and no shoes and no one blinks. The open air places and the warm welcoming atmosphere. The hula dance lessons I got and the beautiful leis. The breathtaking water and the warm sunsets. The private beaches and beached turtles. The hours in the sun with my cousins and the afternoons in the water. I can't even begin to describe how much I treasure these memories and the adventures I had in beautiful Hawaii.
4. Yesterday I climbed a 14er. For those who don't know what a "14er" is- it is a mountain that is over 14,000 feet in elevation. Us, Coloradans, affectionately call them 14ers. I hiked up it and ran down it. And it was the most incredible sight and I was ever so thankful I run because my lungs weren't dying for oxygen. I loved being able to reach the summit and sitting there in awe as I am in the clouds and the tree line is far below me. I loved being able to jump up and down rocks as I navigated the boulder canyon and look out and see beautiful colors far beyond me. I loved being able to be with friends as I climbed it and when we reached the top simply enjoying being up there. My knees hurt like crazy which is weird because that hasn't been a problem before but it was ever so worth it. It was so cold! 32 degrees but I loved wearing lots of sweatshirts and enjoying the breathtaking backyard I live in.
5. I got accepted to UCD. Or University of Colorado Denver. It's been a long process and I am finally signed up for classes. I can't believe this is my junior year and next year I will be a senior. And then off to law school I go. God has been so very good to me and I am so excited about the witnessing opportunities I will have as I ride the Light-Rail and interact with unsaved people every day on my campus. God has given me a mission field that I am so easily able to connect with and this year I am praying that God gives me the words he wishes me to say and gives me his eyes so I can see the hurt around me. There is so much to learn this year both academically and spiritually. I can't wait to see what the school year of 2014 holds for me.
If you're still reading this- WOW! Good job. Thanks for reading and I promise during the school year I will be much more consistent. Also, I am working on a blog post about all my favorite places to eat around Denver so stay tuned for that! Have a wonderful week!
Love y'all,
Sarah
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