Changes

I tend to deal well with changes. In fact, I embrace change. I look forward to change. I change things up in my life all the time. Like the paint in my room. The words I have written on my mirror. The pictures that cover my mirror. There are a few things I like to keep the same. Passwords, my Chai tea from Starbucks, and my friends. Oh and Sperry's. They're always good to keep around.

But lately, I have been inundated with change. My best friend is going across the country for school. My sister left to go back to college today. I switched schools. New classes, new campus, new teachers, new transportation, new friends. At church, we have new staff, new music; I am in a new group now. All of these are good. The changes at church, the changes at school. Those are good.

The best friend leaving- never good. And frankly, this week has been a little hard. Today, I started crying in church because I was overwhelmed with my special people leaving me and this new chapter I am starting. I still love change, but it's an awful lot of change all at once. And sometimes, in the midst of all these people, I still feel alone.

I know I am not alone. Jesus is with me every step of the way. When I'm on top of that 14er as high of a mountain I can be on, and when I'm in the bottom of a tough transition, feeling alone yet knowing the love that's all around me. And sometimes, insecurities creep in. School, church, friendships, life. Life in general. And the only thing constant in my life- is my relationship with Jesus Christ. And I am so very thankful for that. Because when I feel alone, I begin to pray. I listen to music. I dig into Scripture and I become even more reliant on him. So through all this change, my relationship with Christ is changing also. It becomes a necessity- a constant growth- a steady rock to grab onto when I'm not sure whether I am coming or going.

Life is change. Change is easy at times and sometimes change is hard. Right now, it's more hard than easy. But it's okay. Because when I am feeling sad or discouraged or a little unsure of where to go or what is going on- I cling to the fact that my relationship with Jesus is here. Always. Without fail. Always and forever. And that will never change. And I look forward to what else will be changing and how I will grow in His way.

His promise to me: Hebrews 13:5- "...I will never leave you nor forsake you." Psalm 71:21- "Thou shalt increase my greatness, and comfort me on every side." Psalm 94:19- "In the multitude of my thoughts within me, thy comforts delight me soul."

Love you guys,
S